Smile



My kinda smile.



Smile. Such a simple word, but does it hold its true meaning anymore? No, it doesnt. We dont smile quite often in the day, and even if we do, its for the wrong reasons. Laughing at someone's misfortune doesnt count, you know. Thats just natural.
What should make me smile? Flowers, raindrops, smell of coffee in the air, freshly baked bread/cookies/brownies, chubby babies, an A+, a compliment, likes on my status/pictures, another smile, ice-cream, purpleade, my BFF, my tragedies (ironic smile), when i relate to a song, when somebody asks about my last name, akcent, the colour blue, clouds, whipping wind, harry potter (not the movie one), boys, pizza, stilettoes, clutches, when I prove to be right about something, the smell of paint, painting my nails red, and the list will go on..
But the thing is, even if I have these things placed before me, I dont smile. Why? Because the shadow of the gloom still hangs over me. It over-powers the happiness of it. A watery smile is all I can muster up. Practicing smiling in front of the mirror, like they tell us to do in the movies, does NOT work. Its pretty fake. And your gums show. Practicing a real smile doesnt come up to scratch either.
What could be the one thing that can make me smile without any doubt? Come Hell or high water, it WILL make me smile. I thought about it a lot. Pondered, reflected, contemplated. You know, all the thought-y words. Induced all thought provoking strategies. And I got my answer.
Chocolate. My friend. My haven. My home. My savior. My everything.

P.S. Its a good thing I dont have the tendency to get fat because of stuffing my face with chocolates.
P.S.S As an after-thought, this song's been making me smile a lot these days. Is it a co-incidence its titled 'Smile'? And that its by Avril Lavigne?