Despair in Black & White

There are some events or incidents that happen in our life that we can never forget. It maybe due to excess happiness or due to extraordinary grief remaining etched in your mind, never to be erased and uncountable backup copies saved. The feeling of hope-less-ness and numbness follows, circled around by despair and distress. The people who suffer or are involved can never let go, however hard they try, or however many years pass by.
Fate plays a trick and it's such a good and seasoned player, that no one can ever outwit it. It keeps you wondering at night that why? Everything in your life comes to a complete stand still, as if the time itself has been frozen. But as people say, life goes on. And it's true, because nobody stops for nobody. A few days, people bother to shower attention or sympathize, but then everybody gets busy with their own lives. And I for one, don't even blame them. They can't help it, and I know if I was in their shoes, I would do the same, or maybe a bit worse.
Falling down is the easy part, but getting back up again is tough. It requires all the effort in you, crushing you in the process. But only few people get through it. Most die, rhetorically speaking. I feel as I am hovering on the edge somewhere too. At times, I feel that it can't be helped but then a spark in life makes me think it could have a hundred times worse. I can still survive.

Looking at the bright side of things is difficult; the sun hurts the eyes, and we often block the rays with our hands, choosing to remain shrouded in the aura of disappointment and depression. But I have realized that even one smile makes a difference. Nothing significant at the time, but with time each little comes together to make up something huge.
I don't know what to do, or what not to do. There isn't exactly a guide book or a how-to book for getting over things. And when the things keep recurring in your dreams, or rather nightmares, I'm sure that deep inside mentally I will never get over it. I want to try, but I feel it will be in vain.
It's not easy, but I am trying. They say it gets better with time. They lie.